I wish I could just be happy, like truely happy. The sad part is I know it’s my fault that I’m not. It’s my fault that I like somethings get to me when they shouldn’t. It’s my fault for pushing away every guy that actually cares about me and willing to do anything they can to make me happy. My fault for allowing myself to fall for him and then letting him treat me the way he does. My fault for getting upset and wanting someone yet not actually giving any guy a chance. I know you could treat me so much better and try to make me happy but I just don’t want you too. I don’t want anyone to. I don’t know why, I’m not sure if it’s cause I’m scared to, or I don’t trust you to, I just don’t though. I’m such an awful person, I lead people on all the time, but all I ever do is be nice but I still.end up hurting someone. That’s exactly why I just shouldn’t even bother talking to anybody ever. Either I hurt them or I’m stupid enough to let them in and hurt me. Meh.
